all about living happily

2009-12-20T23:25:00.002+08:00

I just realized I blog like twice or once a month man.. Anyway, I am really pissed off right now. My laptop is infected by some stupid viruses and now, it keeps having pop ups. It's damn irritating and it not only corrupts my laptop, now my external hard disk is also infected. Asshole.. I am super duper pissed!

Anyway, I am going to change my blogskin in 2 months time or so when I finish my MP and I have time to really go design it. I am getting quite bored of my blog's design already. It's time to revamp it!

Meeting coussies for K session tomorrow! It has been years since the three of us last went out together.

Having a bad headache and feels like puking. Damn it. Shall blog again! Ciaos!

2009-11-24T19:25:00.002+08:00

I have been effing doing the prototype for almost a week already and I am going crazy! I have not been resting well or having a piece of mind. MP has also caused me to throw unncessary tantrums at baby or even family members sometimes. I'm so sorry baby.

I can't wait for MP to end. 10 more weeks or more to go. Chiong ah!!!

I am waiting for my baby boy to knock off from work. =)

2009-11-14T11:19:00.004+08:00

Okie MP is seriously driving me crazy now. We still don't even know what we are going to do. Going to have another discussion tomorrow or something again. I don't understand why they keep making changes to our project plan, etc. It is quite frustrating because you have to reorganize your time schedule and work load again.

Anyway, I have just created twitter. I know I am quite outdated la.. I am just plain lazy to create one I guess. Lol!

My MP group members are deciding on getting a DSLR lor.. But it's too bloody expensive for me. I think maybe I will pay by installments. Shall see the situation. Worse comes to worse, till I start working then. Haha!

Went out with baby and his parents yesterday. Enjoyed myself though. It's really nice when adults do joke with you instead of those weird atmosphere. Supposed to watch 2012 but as piggy wanted to get his HP, we had to postpone our date. Going to go out later.

I aimed a shoe in Mphosis!!! I guess I am going to get it. Cheryl is so spendthrift!!! Omg!

Seriously, sometimes I hate living in a country whereby the standard of living is so high. Everything is just so expensive. Taxes rise up to 10% and maybe more in future. But how about our pay? Do we get a pay rise? No! Instead of getting an increment, our parents are getting deduction in pay. I really don't know man.. The world has changed. Everything is all about money. Is it really so realistic?

P.S: Missing piggy lots!

2009-10-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

Gosh! I am so stuck with my report! Somebody save me please!!! It is so much more difficult than I thought it was. So unfair!! Why is it that starting from our batch is different format?... Sobs!!! I am so tired now.. Maybe I shall continue with my report tomorrow!

2009-10-15T23:11:00.002+08:00

I am starting my holidays tomorrow!!! OMG!!! Like after months!!! Though it's only two weeks but still.. Woo!! Finally I can sleep for as long as I want everyday like a pig! Wahahahaha! I shall update my photos soon! Stay tune!

2009-09-13T21:39:00.002+08:00

Hi people! I guess this is the longest time I have not been blogging. Gosh.. Anyway, nothing much to update though, that's why I did not bother updating. Otherwise you people are really going to get real bored.

I have been shopping and buying clothes, etc like nobody's business like mad since last month. My pathetic pay is like so PATHETIC and yet I am spending so much. Another thing is I am getting fatter also. I gained 1kg la! Damn.. I am so going to lose weight please! There are still so many things I want to get. Ah!! I just can't resist the shopping temptation.

Okie by the way results are out and my results suck to the max okie. I think this is the first time my grades dropped that much. I am totally disappointed. I really don't understand why we get that grade for that subject. It is just so unfair. Hais. I must ensure that I do well for the upcoming and final project.

Oh! That day when I was walking out of my work place, this lady in front of me saved me man.. She got hit by the gantry while walking out because she didn't notice the thing coming down. Thank goodness. If not for her I think I would have been the one or maybe the guy in front of me. I think it was really very painful but also quite funny at the same time because of her expression. Hopefully nothing happened to her la..

Okie.. I know I am super random but I can't help it. Anyway, I am starting to feel quite distant from IITSC already ever since SIP. Events and stuffs like that I can't join, retreat to Sentosa, etc, nobody asked me also except for the mass sms I sent. So saddening but well, I guess that's life. Really miss everyone in TP. Guess I shall stop here for now. More updates soon hopefully.

Can't wait for my birthday!

Bye people!

P.S: I love my piggy. Thanks for always being there and being so patient with me most of the time. You know you are my everything no matter what. I want to be with you for as long as I live. Love you dear. :)

2009-08-11T23:46:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! I am back! Guess most people have been wondering what I have been doing recently?
Nothing much actually. Just going to work everyday like the same old routine everyday. Have been spending time with my precious and I simply enjoy every second with him.

Oh, I have been rather paranoid by people who doesn't give up their seats to pregnant ladies or elders on the train or buses. I wonder where are people's conscience these days. I wonder how will they feel if others do that to them when they grow older or something. Hais..

Okie.. I don't know what to blog also actually... Just super tired. I can't wait to go back to school. I miss school, my friends, my lecturers and the food there. Cheaper, nicer and more convenient. Ahh!!!

Oh, and also, I have been in a shopping mood for the past two weeks or so. I just can't stop shopping. I just can't resist the sales and everything that is going on. I shall learn to control a little. If only I were a billionaire. Okie maybe slightly lesser, a millionaire.

Alright, I am super tired now. I shall go and sleep soon before all my pimples pop out again. Oh ya! Should I get the Oxymask? I really don't know... Those who knows about this product please tell me the reviews about the product. Thanks!

Goodnight people! =)

P.S: Waiting for your sms.

2009-07-26T17:02:00.003+08:00

I haven't been blogging for weeks again. I know I know and the number of viewers are really getting lesser and lesser. Cannot blame because I am too busy now. Attachment is stressing me up those pass two weeks. Now slightly better but there are going to be more things that has to be done.

Thank goodness I am not the only one being attached to this company. The company is very small but expectations are quite high so there are quite a lot of things to do. I envy those who can MSN and surf Facebook all these while working. Muji is going to be leaving next Friday. Hais.. The office will never be as happening without him around man.. It is going to be so boring for me and Sharlene.. Haha!

After Friday, met up with Baby, had our dinner and got my stuffs and headed over to his place. Then went to PS the next day with Baby, Min and James. Wanted to catch Public Enemies but in the end everywhere was full house. Even the movie Hangover was full so from The Cathay, we walked back all the way to PS and amazingly, they opened another slot for Harry Potter.

So we went to catch that movie. Had Swensens for dinner and headed for the movie. Sadly, I didn't enjoy the movie and it was damn long and draggy la. And I must say that the whole entire story has no link to the half blood prince although it is called Harry Potter and the half blood prince. It was quite nonsensical.

I cannot wait for the new Hong Kong movie acted by Louis Khoo and some other famous Hong Kong actors. I am going to watch it!! So do I want to catch Public Enemies as well and many others.

After the movie baby had to go back already and Sunday I cannot see him lor.. Thanks to army. Hais.. I almost cried lor.. Didn't want to board the train la.. Roar! I can't wait to see him tomorrow! Come to think about it, tomorrow is Monday! Which means work. Ahhh!!! Shall stop here. Ciaos!

You are my everything and I will love you as long as I live. I love you.

2009-07-18T10:19:00.003+08:00

I am freaking irritated now. I brought my laptop for service and I thought I saved my files but I didn't. Nvm! Then while loading my softwares back into the laptop it went crazy and now I can't on it. Fuck it!

So darn pissed!

2009-07-10T09:44:00.002+08:00

My lappy is going to be sent to the hospital soon due to it's Esc button which dropped out and some crap that happened to the keys and stuffs like that..

And sadly, my laptop also went nuts and now I can't start it. Thus, these two problems caused me not to be able to use the computer for I don't know how long.. *Sobs* Hopefully the repair won't cost much and I can get it back in no time.

Dumb viruses I hate them. Why do people come up with viruses?

1) To hack your information
2) To earn more money by making you buy those anti-softwares that does shits.
3) Make your hardware crash, etc so that you will buy new parts.
4) They are sadist people so they feel happy when you are angry and sad because your computer no longer works perfectly nor normally.

Don't you guys think so? Pathetic.

I will be going to the salon later for a long session again. I don't like it but I have no choice. Boring!!! It's going to cost me a bomb again. Roar!!!

I want to catch my Ice Age 3! Can't wait! After that will be UP, Harry Potter and another Hong Kong movie. I forgot what is the movie title. I must say Transformers was really good. Though the story line was so so... But the action pack was good. Those who have yet to catch the movie should do it now!

Going to start my attachment on Monday! Woot!

2009-07-07T11:46:00.003+08:00

Everyone has started their SIP and I am still having holidays haha. Well, it is not because very good or what. It's because my company is going overseas for some business so there will be no one in the office. Job scope seems to be very interesting but location is kind of inconvenient. Looks like I have to get up at 7a.m or even way before that in order to be on time for work. My allowance is also lesser than some of my other course mates lor.. Sian.. But hopefully it is going to be very fun.

Grandma is admitted to the hospital again and this time round it seems pretty serious. It really hurts me seeing her in this state. Every now and then I just feel like crying but I know I have to be strong. Hope she will get well soon. I kind of hate the system that is being applied in the hospital now though..

Got to go for sub committee interview later though quite lazy to get my ass off my chair. Haha!

Ciaos!

2009-07-04T12:40:00.007+08:00

I just realized it has been more than a week since I last blogged. Anyway I guess I am here to rant la lol.

Last week I went swimming with cousin and was supposed to go there for tanning but in the end, the sky was filled with dark clouds so wasted lor.. Swam for a while and saw many people with food. Then LH said she feel very hungry after seeing those people eat and that was only the beginning of our swim so I said CANNOT! CONTINUE SWIMMING!

After a while, we saw more people eating. I looked at her and asked you still want to swim or eat? Then she said go eat la! We laughed and went to get our stuffs and bathed. It was damn bloody cold until I was shivering. After bathing we went to the canteen at the swimming complex. The aunty was %^&*()*&^%.

She was darn rude I must say. It went like this..

Cousin: Eh what do you think this is? Chicken?
Me: I think so.. You ask the aunty lor..
Cousin: Aunty zhe ge shi zhen me? Ji ar? (Is it chicken?)
Aunty: Uh! Yao bu yao? (you want or not?)
Cousin: Duo shao qian? (How much?)
Aunty: $1.30
Cousin: *Thinking* and asked me, "Eh, should I buy?"
Aunty: *Took the chicken and put into the plastic bag and said "$1.30!"
Cousin and me: *Stunned* and both asked each other "Did we tell her that we want it?"
Aunty: Xiao mei! $1.30! (In a super rude manner)
Cousin: Eh how?
Me: Don't buy from her la she so fucked up. We never even said we want in the first place.
Cousin: Wo bu yao le (I don't want it already)
Aunty: Give the fucked up face as if we owe her one.
Me: Let's go. Next time don't come to her stall liao. Stuck up.
Cousin: Ya lor..

Wa lao I tell you the aunty really...... We were super pissed off by her attitude. In the end we went to Jurong Cafe to eat Astons.

Anyway I had my Up Your Service course yesterday and we paid $20.50 to watch a video for 6 hours like that. Wa kao! Waste money lor.. It was only a little useful I think. I dozed off la.. And some of my other classmates also K.O. After that had NAPFA and the system was screwed up. I have never come across NAPFA lasting for almost 6 hours. We went to the sports complex at 3 like that and it ended at almost 9pm and I felt so guilty having to let baby wait for me for like 2 hours or more. Thank you baby and sorry for letting you wait for me so long.

Now, my whole body is also aching after the intensive workout after so long. Yvonne keeps saying I am very man. *Faints*

Oh and there are like so many H1N1 cases now. People please take care of your health ya! Shall end here.

I miss my piggy!

2009-06-25T07:19:00.004+08:00

I'm back to blogging. Had been rather lazy to blog now a days.

Attended AGM on Tuesday as a helper. Quite fun with the girls around haha. We seriously crapped a lot. I love IITSC la! The main committee did a good job in the dance man.. Though it would be a lot better with good coordination. ;)

Attended SIP Briefing yesterday as well. I almost dozed off. The things mentioned were very repetitive but some of them were rather useful.

Went to have cheesecake session with Vonne, CH, RS and TW at Bakerzin. CH and TW had their spagetti and pasta. I can't remember what is that particular pasta called. Then went off to meet my girls at Somerset. Rented the movie 'Body 19' and I ended up with a bad headache and almost puked because it was rather gore and draggy. So I thought the movie was alright only.. At least it has a story line la.. So not that bad.. Petrina and Jane screamed like mad throughout the entire movie. It was super hilarious. We kept laughing and Jo couldn't stand Jane's scream as it was super loud. Hahaha!

Left with Di first and went to meet my dearest. I love Lucky. He's just so adorable but I love baby more. =p He's jealous that Lucky likes me more than him. Hahaha!!! Oops!

I guess I shall rot at home today man.. Boring... No money prepare to eat shit already. But I have got a lot of things to buy!! Argh!

AGM Photos

Crazy girl and me. Loves her!

AGM's Admins

Thomas and TS at the back chup ji ka! Lol.

Ahmad and I

At B.U.O

My beloved girls

Min and her boy (007)

Me and my baby boy. Love him lots!

2009-06-19T21:47:00.003+08:00

Had presentation today and I think we did not do very well. Hais. My leg hurt like mad when I reached home and I forgot my thumbdrive and asked the uncle to U turn back and he was like nice enough to wait for me downstairs while I went up to get my thumbdrive.

Went to have lunch with CH and Vonne before going back home. I am super tired but I think I am going to meet ah toh for supper later.

Oh! And today there was this big housefly in my study room and it was on the wall. I was so afraid that I turned off the air con and on the fan praying that it will like fly out. However, I was wrong lor. Very wrong. It stayed there till a while later then cousin came over to my study room and we chatted.

Later at night when my parents came back, I didn't know it was at the door until a while later. My dad closed the door and when I opened the door, the housefly flew! Then I continued doing my things la though I was like half frightened.

When I went out of the room, I effing stepped on something and I went like "Shit................................ Don't tell me it is the............... *while mumbling looking below my foot* and.................. FUCK! I stepped on the housefly!!!! Ewww!" I quickly washed my foot with soap la.. Super gross man! Luckily I didn't like put my whole entire weight on it man. Otherwise I guess it would be squashed?

Anyway, I think it is injured or something that's why it couldn't fly or what but ya. It's still gross alright.. I think it is houseflies season now. Yesterday also saw a few.

Alright people, should I pierce my tongue? Tag me for your comments please! Thank you! =)

I simply love him to the max.

2009-06-16T23:29:00.002+08:00

Happy 22nd Birthday Sky!

May your wishes and dreams come true. All the best in army.

I am back home. Met CH in school to do our ppt and then we went to Jacks Place to have our lunch.

Then rushed to meet my dearie cousin at Orchard to sing K. Sang till we totally ran out of voice. She was like looking at cute guys on the way while me this "lao jiao" has not much interest in cute guys ya. Lol. Different age ahh.. Hahaha! I prefer looking at girls. I am not a les or bi or wad so ever. It is just not much of my interest. I only look at guys once in a while maybe.

We love to talk craps with each other. We talked about many things like childhood times, etc. Went shopping after that and oh so embarrassing, we nearly went down by the wrong escalator today as we were too busy talking lol.

Tomorrow is Wednesday again! Time to party! Hopefully. Haha!

To Shir: 1 hour plus and I am missing you already. LOL!!! Okie I know you are so going to say me already.

I miss you, my dearest.

2009-06-13T14:49:00.002+08:00

Woot! Yesterday was quite a great night. Was club hopping here and there. Had quite a lot of fun though it was supposed to be a night of trance or house. I am not going into details but sum up with one word "fun".

TL is quite a good drinker man and I think I am beginning to be scared of Martell's smell. Horrible. I love to paaaarrrttttttyyy! Haha! Alright enough of my nonsense.

Okie. I miss driving and him.

2009-06-12T15:10:00.002+08:00

Okie my hand is like one ba zhang now. If you all don't know what is ba zhang it actually means dumpling. It's swollen and painful like shit.

I am such a shoppaholic that I asked min out to go shopping with me and I went on a shopping spree. Spending $110+ on clothes and a pair of heels. Good deal la. I love sales. Not that I am budget but just nice the things that i like are on sale so why not? Even sales doesn't mean it is $10 kind please. But i am damn sad that my heels are not on sale but super chio. I hope it doesn't hurt.

Had been clubbing like mad also and got drunk that day again. Hang over and it suck. Lol. But overall I had fun.

Stayed at home the whole day yesterday until I went to meet sotong. Caught the movie Ghost of the girlfriend's past and slacked till 2 plus am and then home.

I am beginning to miss you.

2009-06-09T14:00:00.011+08:00

I'm so addicted to the song "No more". I guess this is what I want to tell my exes as well. Haha! Totally in love with this song.

You tried, boy

You tried to blame it on me

At first it worked I was feeling so guilty

You said, you said

I was the reason why

We couldn't work out

But that was all a lie

You never gave me

What I gave you boy

But it's your loss

'Cause you made the choice

To walk out

But you want me back around

I wish that I never loved you

Never loved you

Chorus:

I should have never let you have my heart

You made me not want to feel again

Made me scared to open up, but

Now I'm better off

No more bad days

Don't need you to validate me

No More

(I don't need you)

No More

(I don't need you)

No More

(I don't need you)

No More

(I don't need you)

You made me

Made me think we had something real

But then you tried to use the way I feel

Against me

Make me a yes girl

You tried to do

Had to free myself

'Cause I can't let you

Get the best of me

No more misery

Had to free myself

'Cause you're not the one for me

And I bet you wish you had my love again

I bet you wish you never made that decision

'Cause now you want me back

I bet you want me back

But when I cry myself to sleep

Tell me, where are you?

Chorus:

I should have never let you have my heart

You made me not want to feel again

Made me scared to open up, but

Now I'm better off

No more bad days

Don't need you to validate me

Bridge:

I did everything you asked me to

But nothing was good enough

And baby, we're through

You act so arrogant

You act like you're heaven sent

And I'm not gonna let you get the best of me

I'll find someone who loves me for me

Oh and ces showed me this video and I thought it was rather touching. Watch it for those who loves love drama series. This is just a short one.

Going shopping later and meeting the rest for retreat later. Bye!

2009-06-07T17:45:00.002+08:00

Yesterday PH was insanity. This is the first time i see FULL HOUSE and can't even re-enter. What stupid logic is this? If you know that your entire place is not big enough then limit your number of entries a day! Then I just went out to find my friend, I had to waste almost half an hour waiting outside. This is totally ridiculous. Also, I don't understand how come suddenly so many people are going to PH. I kind of dislike the way they do things now but I still love the songs and everything there.

Toh's friend is handsome too man. Though she is a girl. Kaox. I almost thought that she was a guy and I was like "Eh, your friend quite handsome leh". Then she was like she is a girl! I was extremely shocked. Lol. Then I replied her "If only I was a lesbian". Hahahaha!!!

Great night yesterday. Knew more people yesterday. Many people whom I know were there as well. Everyone had fun! Party!!! But it was tiring. Haha!

Super tired now. And I superbly hate drivers who look down on P Plate drivers. You guys were once a P Plate man. Fuck it. I may be P Plate but my skills may not be as bad as you guys. Roar!!

Alright I shall continue stoning. Bye!

Happy birthday Kat! x)

2009-06-06T15:41:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MY SWEETIE BESTIE!
19 years and going on strong. Love you!

I am like a roasted pig now. Drove dad's car out of the car park my ass got burnt. -.-
Went for supper with min and 007 at Simpang. Got a hard time parking my car as it got stuck due to the slope because I had to reverse. Haha!

Then we headed over to the reservoir to slack and that sickening 007 scare me by trying to scare the baby lizard away. Kaox. Sent min back and sorry 007, had to drop you at Tampines because it's not my car. Haha!

I am finally having my holidays after so many weeks! Going clubbing today with my darlings I guess and meeting Elisa for shopping session later. Then party at night. Girls out! Woot!

Anyway, guys love to play stunts, so do I. Try me.

2009-05-27T14:06:00.002+08:00

I am starting to having the kind of don't want to go to school mood already. There are so many things that I have to do and they are not done. I think I'm doomed.

Anyway, reckless drivers on the road are uncountable. I almost got into two or three car accidents in a day because of these inconsiderate drivers. I don't know what they get out of showing off, etc. Especially men. This gives me another reason to dislike men.

Also, yesterday when I was boarding the bus, this idiotic guy from my school pushed me just to get up the bus as many people were rushing to get up the same bus. Come on, he was super ungentlemen la and I told my friend that he was gay. Super pissed off by this kind of guys.

Watched night of the museum 2 with cousin as well. I thought part 1 was nicer. People claimed it was very nice, etc but I thought it was average. Go watch it and find out yourself. Haha! Gotta go prepare to go to school now. Bye!

2009-05-23T12:42:00.005+08:00

Dear cousin-in-law, may you rest in peace in heaven. I am sure god will take care of you as for you are a man. You are good father, husband and a good relative of ours. You will always be in our memories. May god bless you.

Thank god I was able to see him for the last time before god took him away. I don't understand why good people always leave this world so early. I hope my cousin, niece and nephew will really be strong.

Going for Katherine's birthday later on.

Then have to the casket at night. Hopefully I won't cry again but I bet I will.

P.S: My laptop's esc button came off! £$%^&*()(*&^%

I guess you won't believe what I said but it is the fact. You can deny the fact but you cannot runa way from the fact.

2009-05-22T12:42:00.008+08:00

My mind is in a whirl now due to many things.

Had a conversation with J yesterday and I think that it is not whether I believe your words or not but you made me lost the trust in you. The way you said those things if they were true, why not tell me when we were together? What is the point telling me now. I'm so over it. If you really treasured me, what you mentioned won't be about her all the time. Even now, your blog is still all about her. How can I trust your words? Ask yourself for god sake.

I am happy with my single life now. I can do what I want. Why should I tie myself to guys who ends up being unappreciative at all.

I am super sian now as I have to rush my report and submit it by today.

Going to the hospital later and maybe over to my parents' friend's place. Gonna rot there I guess.

I want to watch Night of the Museum 2! Any takers? I need to go shopping as well. Argh!

I kind of miss someone ever since that day. I don't know why. But I guess it is already impossible between us. Nobody will guess who that person is.

I still hold a glimpse of hope.

2009-05-21T00:17:00.002+08:00

I bumped into ces twice in school today and she talked to me about her relationship stuffs. I realized I haven't been catching up with her for a long time. There's just so much to say but there was just not enough time. Haha.

Anyway, I guess I can't give her much opinion because my opinion towards guys had changed drastically ever since all the shits that happened previously. So girl, sorry if my mindset is no longer the same.

Shir and I are having the same thinking and we are going to work towards it. We were saying single is good as we can have all the freedom we want as we can't seem to find the right feeling anymore. Shopping soon alright my dear girl? But you have to wait for my holidays! Lol!

Having sore eyes since morning and I shall go and sleep already. Long day tomorrow again.

Singlehood! I wonder how long will it last. Lol!

2009-05-19T23:54:00.003+08:00

I just received a news from my dad saying that one of my cousin-in-law is admitted into the hospital and is in critical condition now. Tears just fell off my cheeks when I heard that he is in coma and what has happened. I am not going to say it here. I am going to pray that everything will be fine and he will wake up a healthy man like before. I hope my relatives will stay strong.

I will keep praying until you are fine.

2009-05-19T17:45:00.004+08:00

I missed those days. I do miss chilling out at clubs and pubs with my dearest friends but I know I have to cut down on it. Those were the times I can just let my hair down and forget about everything. Even though getting drunk and stuff is just for that moment, it's better than thinking about it throughout the night. That is for me, to you people, you may have a different concept. Call me silly or what but that's just me.

I am desperate now. Desperate to drive! Lol! What are you guys thinking? Having a bf? I am not ready yet I guess. I just want to have all the freedom I have now.

Anyway, I've gotten my licence! No more temporary licence anymore! Haha James! I got mine liao! =p So don't hao lian ahh!! Hahaha!

I shall stop here now.

Show me some LOVE! Hahaha! Those who are in C168 will know where this quote comes from. Lol.

2009-05-18T18:11:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow is TP's Election Day for all the various schools and Graduation Day for those who had graduated from TP. I guess many are very excited.

I am excited to see who is in the Main Committee this year.

Anyway, for those who had shown your concern about my fever thank you so much! I am feeling a lot better already.

I had a lot of fun chatting with Shir yesterday and on Friday. We talked a lot about our relationships, friends, etc. I haven't been catching up with my dearest younger cousin for months. I was glad that we were able to catch up quite a lot during those two days. Haha! My darling is so busy with her bf so she pang seh-ed us when we were over at her place.

I am having so many problems now a days I am really going nuts already. I actually knew what I wanted but then problems arised again and that led me to a lot of thinking and confusion. Regrets in the past.

I have let go of my past somehow but I can't seem to accept a new relationship.

Bestie and I is having a cold war. I seriously think it was your mood that led to it as I was just joking which you can take it on your normal days. You know I don't mean it. I know you and her are having problems and I know you are unhappy. I tried to lend a listening ear but you rejected it and now you show me attitude. I really don't know what's wrong. Maybe to you everything is my fault. That's why I told you I will shut up because what are say, you will not be happy. I really hate cold war between friends. It seriously suck. Go think about it as well bah.

I am really going beserk. Sorry, I won't say what I am going through right now. I just hope things will become better and not worse.

Crying to sleep every night

2009-05-14T15:34:00.009+08:00

I suddenly realized that there are so many things to catch up with. Now I am still short of one member for MP. Jialat already lor.. Kaox. Anyway, I just started playing RC today and it's like super difficult to level can? And it also cause my laptop to be super lag.

Anyway....

PLEASE VOTE FOR IRVING, DESMOND, BENJAMIN YAP AND ALEX FOR IITSC MAIN COMMITTEE THIS YEAR AT THE CYBER CENTRE FROM 19-21st MAY! COME ON DOWN AND SUPPORT THEM BY VOTING FOR THEM! THANKS!!

This is Irving and Alex, they want me to put his poster up. Sorry Alex, hope I never post up too late! Had been rather busy those few days. Haha! Jiayou guys! To those who are in the election good luck to you guys too even if your name is not mentioned here because I am not sure who you guys are I only roughly know a few haha! Gambate! =)

IITSC is the super duper zai club! IITSC we pa buey toh!

2009-05-13T15:13:00.003+08:00

Hello people. Anyone misses me? Hahaha!
It has been days since i last blogged ya. I had been ill for a week already and I'm still under medication. I missed a week of school also. Hais..

I have been like a guine pig these few days la.. Try this medicine and try that medicine. Went to the hospital twice and went on drip, got injection, blah blah. During the second time the doctor poke wrongly some more. Painful like shit. Now there's a blue black la.. It's still super painful when I press on my hand.

Anyway I have also decided to stop clubbing unless special occasion or what. I don't want to fall sick again because I realized there are still a lot of things that I want to do. I don't want my parents to worry about me also. They have been taking care of me this one week and I felt really bad. I didn't even manage to celebrate Mother's Day with my mum except giving her a hug and wishing her "Happy Mother's Day". But I promise I will make it up for her.

Also, I want to thank SB for always being there for me and can even go all the way just to get for me the things I want. Thank you boy. =)

I love the flowers as well. =)

I hope I can make it to my ceremony and Van's house warming on Saturday.

Oh and J, if you want to know why I answered you that way in the sms that day was just what you told me to do. Gain back my confidence and I did in some way so I didn't felt as demoralized as how you think I was. I don't need to have the looks to be attractive. If I am, I naturally will.

2009-05-09T17:45:00.002+08:00

Have you guys been wondering why I haven't been updating, replying tags and online?
I am down with high fever and it keeps going up and down. I am going crazy.
I suspect I may have dengue fever but I do not have the red spots yet.
Will go to the hospital later.

Anyway, I passed my driving. Haha.

Gotta go, feel super weak now. Bye.

2009-05-06T00:32:00.002+08:00

I had fun driving today. I had V as my instructor today and I was pretty surprised and happy at the same time. You know you can always make friends with the instructors there. They are pretty nice. =) Then after lessons I saw P also. TP in two more days omg..

Anyway I realized there are lesser people viewing my blog these few days. I don't know why also.. Nobody loves me anymore!! =( Haha! Joke joke!

Oh! And I want to rant about today before I went for my driving lesson. I reached the bus stop at about slightly passed 8 a.m. Then bus 22 came. So i boarded happily because it's a double decker! And then! The bus broke down two stops after my stop. Kaox! Then I was late because of the bus and I had to take a cab. I didn't take the ticket and I rushed down the bus to hail a cab. NVM! Then this lady who was in her 20s got up from the same stop as me and she rushed down the bus as well. I must admit she is quite pretty BUT PRETTY SO WHAT? No courtesy at all! Think she pretty very big shot like that. I was already there hailing the cab and I stood there first. She bloody hell just walked in front of me and got onto the cab and give me that smurk on her face. I felt like slapping her at that moment please. Thank god there was a cab right behind and I got onto the cab.

Guys! So much for your PRETTY GIRLS! *Pukes!*

Pretty girls with good character = *Thumbs up*

Pretty girls with lousy character = Fuck Off

*Angry* *Trying to cool down*

Anyway I saw my darling Min yesterday!! I missed her so much la!! Girl, don't abuse James kies? Hahaha! Love you!! You can always tell me your problems kies? We are a couple leh!! Lol! James if you see this don't be jealous because our feelings are as strong as your feelings for her! Hahaha!!!

Alright! Goodnight people!

2009-05-02T23:55:00.006+08:00

Okie.. I am down with flu again. Having headache also. Sickening. I'm like flooding myself with cooling drinks. Super no mood to do anything and so, I started taking photos of myself which I haven't been doing for weeks or months. Hahaha!

Anyway, I just realized the symptoms of Swine Flu which is now known as H1N1 are just like normal fever. Thus, it would be safer to visit the doctor if any of you are experiencing fever or something. Best is to take good care of your health. Don't end up like me every now and then fall sick. Is super sian one lor.. Want to go out slack also cannot. -.-

Oh ya.. And my niece asked me something that was super sensitive. She asked why does my teeth looks like bugs bunny and why is my tooth yellowish. Kaox..

About my teeth! I freaking want to put on braces but it's very costly so I just have to leave it like this at the moment. Then about my yellowish tooth, it's caused by too much consumption of antibiotics when I was young I think.

P.S: I cannot not care about you. Did I owe you anything in the past?

Enjoy my photos!

2009-05-01T22:52:00.003+08:00

Today is my nephew's birthday and went over to cousin's new house for house warming plus a birthday celebration for their little one. Reached their condo around 3 plus 4pm and enjoyed their air con and played with the two small ones. Then went to sayang Rex(cousin's dog). He is really old now and he is not as hyper active as he was in the past. I feel really sad when i saw him. He's 14 years old already I guess. He is getting really weak.

Anyway, after that I went down with the kids for a swim. Actually I was suppose to go for a swim alone or something and ended up taking care of the kids haha! Therefore, I was in this pool which was like super shallow. So I think I only swam a few laps in the small pool. Went back to bathe and everything. Relatives started coming one by one and we went down for bbq after that. Kyle cried because my cousin didn't allow him to open his present until tomorrow or so.

Talked with my dearest cousin who is of the same age as me when I saw her. Talked about relationship and stuff. Didn't have the chance to talk to her much. To my surprise, I saw Mrs Ong Hwee Chin! Omg.. We talked about many things and her daughter was super cute. She was like playing with my nieces and nephews. We chatted for like half an hour or so man.. I really missed those times in Secondary School as well. I shall go back school and look for my teachers one day.

Wanted to go look for my freshies but they were at Esplanade. It was already quite late. Thus, I went back home. Hope they enjoyed themselves and Happy Belated Birthday to Chee Leng!

2009-04-30T18:24:00.006+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday Juvone!

Loves!! May your dreams and wishes come true!
Also, last long long with your ah boy. =)

Eh oh!! (ICQ sound) I'm bueno-ing!

Alright, I'm eating my Kinder Bueno now haha! School is super stressful now. I am having lots of projects and assignments. Tests are coming up as well. Omg.. I am going nuts. Anyway, I saw Jonathan in school. It has been years since I last saw him. The last time I saw him was in Primary 6 as he was in the same class as me.

Therefore, during the Week 0 camp, I was so surprised when I saw him and he couldn't recognise me until i told him who I was. So I got his number when I saw him today and JB said "Wa! Cheryl! Not bad ahh!" as he didn't know he was my primary school classmate. Hahaha! I have to make this clear that I am not that sort of girl who gets number from a guy whom I don't know at all. I really missed those days in primary school.

I went for my driving revision today. Total disaster. I wonder how am I going to get my licence next Friday. I better make sure I pass and I must pass. Argh!

Now I don't know what C wants. He is making me confused all over again. I just want to ignore and not bother about anything for now.

These were photos taken on Jason's advanced birthday celebration.

2009-04-28T17:50:00.003+08:00

I had been rather busy again.. I am super tired. Really tired from school work and everything. It's like tests, assignments and everything are all coming at the same time. I am going nuts already. Played badminton with some people from IITSC. A little lazy to mention who was there but it was pretty fun. I couldn't stop laughing. I don't know why. My muscles are still aching since Friday and I think I played like shit today. Okie whatever..

Then CH, Yvonne they all were like "Yer smelly!! Don't come near me". Wa lao.. So sad lor.. It was because I only had less than an hour to play and I won't have the time to take a bath before I go for lessons. But I brought clothes to change la!! Roar!!

Oh btw, it seems like it is the mating season for flying ants these few days or maybe just today. They were like everywhere and it's like so dirty la.. It kind of irritates me as well as it keeps flying around. Argh! Must they all come mating at the same time?

Wa lao.. Then I was like telling CH.

"Can you imagine if they like do it in front of you? How gross."

Really lor.. Then as we headed to Mac, we saw more! Luckily on my way back, we didn't see many already.

The weather is going nuts. Sun, rain, sun.

Did I mention that I saw a shooting star at East Coast Park the other day? Well, I actually did. It was really fast and I thought it was kind of pretty. I guess that was the second time I saw a shooting star. Initially I thought there will only be a shooting star in like 10000000000 years. Lol!

Anyway, some guys are just weird. I really don't know what they want.

Alright, I guess I will go get a short nap for now.

To J: Good luck for your driving tmr! Must pass hor! Mine is like next week. So scary.

2009-04-24T20:14:00.002+08:00

Okie.. My nails are painted and I am like blogging. Haha! Today went for badminton session with a few of my freshies at Bedok CC. My skills seriously has deproved. After playing we went over to interchange's hawker centre to have our lunch. I missed dialogue session because I overslept. Argh.. I am so pissed about that la.. Anyway, after eating, I went for driving. I think my confidence level seriously suck la.. I don't know how am I going to pass my Practical Test like this. I actually drove bare footed today because my shoe's base was too thick for me to feel the paddles.

CH sorry that I couldn't go swimming with you today because of that. Another day okie? I promise. =)

Super sleepy again. I feel like hugging my bear and sleep. Lol!

Argh!! Whole body is aching after today's badminton session. Roar!!

2009-04-23T16:59:00.006+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday to you XinYun!!!!

Thanks for being such a nice freshie! Loves!
I bet today you very happy right! Hahahahaha! We and our idea.
Hope you had fun today with your classmates!
C241 is zai one! Woo!

I'm back to blog! Ever since the start of school, I had been rather busy. Today I'm quite happy because our lesson ended earlier because of the fire drill haha. I thought we were the only class or what. Who knows almost the whole school also I think. Year 3 is not slack at all please. I am going crazy already lor.. I think we have too long breaks already. Otherwise, we can go back earlier. Tomorrow I have no school as well. Might be joining freshies for badminton session! Hopefully I can make it man!

Oh and my parents got me a teddy bear, a cute little furry thing that looks like a hamster, etc. They are damn cute okie! And they all sleep with me at night. Haha!

Alright! I shall see what I can do later. Woot!! Btw I haven't been posting up pictures right. So sorry. I shall do it now. These are photos taken during the Week 0's Sentosa Outing and my job as Tampines 1's Ambassador two weeks ago.

2009-04-20T19:20:00.002+08:00

Okie.. My new time table is quite screwed up as it clashes with my driving and I cannot seem to find a solution to it! Cancel also not right because I haven't gone for any revision. Skip lesson also I am afraid it will affect the attendance. Time table is released so late and I cannot even plan my driving. Now I cannot even get LOA for a few of my important lessons before my TP. Really damn pissed off and sian now. Really don't know what to do already.

I just need someone with iBanking to save me now! Argh! I should have just taken private I guess. Damn it.

Too pissed to blog. Shall blog again.

2009-04-18T11:22:00.002+08:00

Cheryl is back! But not from camp. You guys must be thinking correct what.. You went for camp so should be back from camp.

Yes, I came back from camp on Wednesday midnight. Thanks Nelson for driving me home if not I think I might just fainted by the road side. I was running a high fever after nightwalk and I didn't know. I just felt that my whole body was aching and I sensed that I was going to have fever or something again so I signed out. Indeed the next morning I missed my driving as well as my camp! I slept at home for 2 days with diarrhoea, vomitting, etc. Argh.

Thank goodness I am feeling better now. Thanks for those who are always there to show me your care and concern. I really appreciate it. =)

I still love my freshies even though I could only join you all for the first day. See you all soon! Loves!

2009-04-15T00:17:00.002+08:00

I am so unhappy now a days.
I get angry very easily. I don't know why. Not because I am coming menses or what.
Maybe because I have too many things in me that I didn't express out.
I tried not to think about stuffs that makes me unhappy because everyone told me to be happy. I tried and it seems like a fake mask. I ain't happy at all.
Every now and then I walk back home alone thinking of lots of things. Times when me and my previous boyfriends were together.
Why are they treating me like this now?
What have I done wrong to deserve all these?
I keep asking myself these questions. I am really tired.

I love the times me and my girlfriends are together. I treasure each outing we have with each other. It is really very nice. I love the gossips we always have and we share our thoughts and experiences, etc. Today was really a great outing but you girls had to leave early. I hope we can meet out more often okie? Love you girls to the max!

My camp starts tomorrow. I will be back on Friday. I guess nobody bothers and nobody will miss me as well. I shall sleep soon. Bye.

I want the confident and happy me back. I feel like crying again. Argh.. Whatever..

2009-04-13T21:41:00.002+08:00

I just came back from having frog porridge with Min and James. I am so full now. They went reservoir while i went home because I didn't want to be a light bulb there. Must be auto lol. Anyway I am once again very tired but I have to help Jojo with her flash. She has been complaining for almost a week already. So funny la she. Cannot stand her.

Went shopping today also couldn't get anything. I don't know why is everything so expensive these days.

I suddenly feel very lonely. I don't know why.

Everyone's busy with their bf and me doing things alone. Blah...

2009-04-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

Working is really tiring me out sometimes. I don't know why I get tired easily now a days.

Met up with Sky and Ivan for Astons just now. Shiok! But the black pepper was too much I think. Overall, very nice! The onion rings can fight with Burger King's one already. For $5.90, you get to choose your side dishes as well leh.. How nice lor.. I should be going there again soon. Haha!

I will be working tomorrow again. Will be walking around Tampines 1 so come down and support ya! Haha! I will be in green! After work will be my turn to go shopping already! Yay!! It has been so long since I last shopped.

I miss drinking avacado juice!

Alright.. I guess I will go and sleep soon. Goodnight people!

2009-04-10T12:32:00.002+08:00

In this world, you can lie to everyone or I should say anyone except yourself and your own conscious.

Going to prepare myself for work later! The phelgm I am having is driving me crazy! Causing me to have blocked nose. Thank you phlegm. Argh! Bye!

2009-04-10T00:08:00.005+08:00

Woah.. I'm getting lesser viewers just because I haven't been blogging for two days! Haha. Anyway, for those who knew I was ill, now I'm having blocked nose la.. Sickening.. It makes me so no mood lor..

Hibernated at home for almost 5 days like that and went with Daddy to have my early dinner. Went back home then went to meet the two guys for a movie. Saw quite a few whom I know today at TM. The feeling is quite nice though! Met Alson at the Interchange then I looked at him and smile but he was on the phone and ignored me so I thought he couldn't recognise me again. So I walked off quickly as I was late la.. Then met him outside Tampines 1 again and he was like "Wa lao!! Why you walk so fast? I wanted to talk to you then cannot find you already". Haha! So funny.. So I thought we were supposed to meet as well with the two guys but he was actually there to look for his other friends or what bah..

Singaporeans are quite crazy. Majiam never go before new shopping mall lor.. So bian tai.. The queue in a particular shop was super long and I saw the news like even before the shop opened, about 400 people were queueing up? Omg lor.. Anyway, I will be working there tomorrow. Support okie?!! Haha!!!

So I accompanied them to Long John Silver to have dinner and then played arcade a while and went in for the show. We caught Sniper and I thought the show was not bad la.. It's an action pack. However, the story line you must really focus then you know what is it about. Otherwise, you will not catch a thing.

After the movie, slacked a while over at Coffee Bean and then went back home.. Saw C there over at his work place. I didn't really dare to look at him as well as I guess he might not want to see me or what also.. Then went back home alone, thinking of quite a lot of things. Sometimes being alone is really nice.

Oh ya!! And this time round my MP3 really spoil already la!!! No more MP3!!! =( Anyone wants to buy one for me? Haha!

To J: Now you know how it feels to be like a substitute after giving in so much and loving one so much? I am not trying to be mean here or try to mock at you for breaking up with me because I don't find that there's a need to.

We all learn from mistakes but do you? You are a nice guy. If she doesn't appreciate you, it is her loss. I can just say she is not worth it. Why make yourself so miserable when you know you won't get back anything in return. Looking at your post, she is just making use of what you have.

I am really pissed off by your foolishness. When will you wake up my dear boy? If you think friends are not important to you but only her, think it through again. Is it really true? What about those close friends that you have whom are always there for you? Regardless of guy or girl. How will they feel when you say this? You told me you know what you want in life, what you have thought of, I think they are bullshit. Seriously, get back to reality! I am sorry but I have to say that there are other girls out that 100000000 times better than her. So what if she really comes back to you? Will her heart be with you? Will you be happy?

I may not have done a lot for you because our relationship was just a month plus but you are now just as foolish as I am. How you feel is just somewhat how I feel towards you. I don't need you to come back to me, what is most important is that you are happy you understand? I may not be the woman you love most or had loved before because the woman you love most is her.

You should really learn to appreciate those around you which I think are your friends and family members. Seeing you like this everyday really breaks my heart. Remember, I'm always here for you.

2009-04-07T11:37:00.005+08:00

I am so bored right now. I don't even know whether I have recovered because this morning was still a little feverish so ate medicine before I went for driving. PX was really nice to pick me up half way and sent me to CDC. Thanks PX! Furthermore, driving was fun today. My instructor was utlra lame and we kept talking about people. Damn funny. So throughout the whole lesson we kept crapping.

Learnt directional change and vertical parking today. Woot! It was fun but my left leg not fun la.. Keep stepping and releasing the clutch so many times. Tired lor..

Supposed to meet the rest for dinner tonight at Astons' but I don't think I can eat such stuffs today. Probably tomorrow or the day after bah.. Unless Sky so buey dong then have to go without me le. =)

Alright.. I shall go and sleep again I guess. Goodnight! Haha.

2009-04-06T20:18:00.001+08:00

I am so disappointed in you.
You just don't know what I want.
Guess you don't know I'm referring to you as well.
Bye.

2009-04-06T14:19:00.002+08:00

Hello people! I'm down with a fever again! I'm getting weak man.. Or is it because of the weather? Hmm. I must get well by today because I have got driving tomorrow and I cannot afford to be sick! I wish someone can be here to take care of me but I know it won't happen one la..

My wound from that time's fall has still not recovered. I don't know why.. And the blue blacks on the same spot is still there. Super painful. Hais..

Oh!! Anyway, I've changed my blog song. I super like this type of genre of music. Hope you people like it too. Time to change it to something soothing inside of always RnB. Haha!

Alright.. My lunch would be bread and milk because of the damn fever. I hope I can lose weight from this. Lol!!

Ciaos!!

2009-04-05T05:11:00.002+08:00

Haha thank you for all the shit boy. Thank you for going off with my friend leaving me behind crying like an ass.. Now I am still drunk but I just want to blog.

I cried like nobody's business outside PH just now. I don't know which kind person gave me a packet of tissue. It was some random passerby I think. Thank you even though I don't know who are you. Without your tissue I would look even uglier. The security there came and talk to me as well. He sat beside me and asked if I was alright and comforted me. Thank you so much too even though we haven't met before I guess. It was really nice.

Also, thanks PX for coming out to accompany me even though you had to go Boat Quay with your friends. Thanks Ren and Jason for taking care of me as well. Thank you guys. Really appreciate it.

Oh.. i puked outside my house corridoor la.. Just a few more steps till I reach home lor.. Then i puked. How nice is it.. Then when I went into the toilet and tried to puke nth came out.

Eugene, you are right.. not attractive enough... Not you but me. That's why all the guys I loved most left me. Maybe clubbing is just not where I belong. The more I think about it, the more upset I am. Hais.. Thought I could enjoy myself tonight but everything just went wrong. So wrong...

2009-04-04T00:16:00.003+08:00

Haha I guess E was all you ever wanted. Well, you said I was maybe someone who helped you mend the hole or the pain in your heart. I'm upset but yet I am happy that at least you are happy now. One person being sad is better than two being sad. Now I know you are sad not because of me but her. But I do understand. I'm glad that you know who you really want. I'll just stand by you no matter what.

I was upset that the reply I got from you was just a "Woot! Thank you"

But at least you replied. I just have to say if you have any means to be cold to me being afraid you may give me the wrong impression or what, you don't have to because there is no point for me to hold on when your heart already belongs to someone else. Just remember you'll still be in my heart. I really hate it when we become like strangers after a break up. I really dislike the feeling. Hope we can be like the past ya. =)

Anyway went for Mahjong session over at Justin's place and I lost like $10+ in two rounds. Kaox.. So sad lor.. My money just flew like that. But I guess that is just part of gambling. That's why I dislike gambling la.. Roar! After that went to meet Eugene at ECP. Had my dinner over at Macs and Jon told me to exercise more after Mac because it is sinful lol! Slacked at the beach and listened to the sound of the waves. Really makes me feel a lot more calm and it makes me feel very peaceful. Went home around 11 plus.

Might be going PH tomorrow again. Anyone interested? Sms me haha! Ciaos!

2009-04-02T16:14:00.007+08:00

Okie I so want to rant here!! RANT RANT RANT!! Hmpff!!!

1) I lost my belt at PH yesterday! Suky lost her new pack of ciggerettes. Quite funny. Then we say it must be Jason's aura lol!
2) My whole body is aching after swimming
3) I am so tanned and my skin is peeling!
4) The cuts on my hand is itching like mad! Hopefully it is not infected.
5) After two months my cough is like on off on off one. Till now still not okie.
6) I seem to have put on weight lor.. That's why I am doing intensive exercise now.
7) My panda eyes seems to be getting worse lor.. Argh!

Okie.. I think that's all that I want to rant? Lol!

Jon's friends were super lame just like him. That's why I say tong dang one lol. But they were quite funny la.. Alright. Meeting my darling Min for dinner later. I haven't seen her ever since last week I think.

Lyrics for my blog song. The one that I say kind of suits my feelings now? Although it is for a girl but to me it doesn't matter la.. I assume mine is singing to a guy lol. It just somewhat expresses my feelings.

Song Title: Harder than you know

You said this could only get better.

There's no rush, 'cause we have each other.

You said this would last forever,

But now i doubt if i was your only lover.

Are we just lost in time?

I wonder if your love's the same.

'Cause i'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me.

I'm trying to let go

Not loving you is harder then you know.

'Cause girl your driving me so crazy

How can i miss you if you never would stay?

If you need time i guess I'll go away.

Inside me now there's only heartache and pain!

So where's the fire?

You've begun the rain.

Are we just lost in time?

I wonder if your love's the same

'cause i'm not over you!

Baby, don't talk to me

I'm trying to let go

Not loving you is harder then you know,

('cause girl your driving me so crazy)

And if you don't want me then

i guess i'll hav'ta go!

Not loving you is harder then you know.

YEAH!

So I'll make the call,

and I'll leave you today

I'm gona miss you 'cause i love you baby

Yeah, I'll make the call

I'm leaving today

Leaving always drives me crazy!

Baby, don't talk to me

I'm trying to let go.

Not loving you is harder

Then you know,

YEAH!

Baby, don't talk to me

i'm trying to let go (I'm tring to let go)

Not loving you is harder

Then you know,

('cause girl your driving me so crazy)

and if you don't want me then

i guess i'll havt'a go! (I guess I'll hav'ta go)

not loving you is harder then you know

(girl your driving me so crazy)

Baby, don't talk to me

i'm trying to let go.

Not loving you is harder,

then you know,

girl your driving me so crazy.

2009-04-02T06:09:00.002+08:00

Good morning sleepy heads! I am still awake as I just got home a while ago from PH.
Super tired. Today was quite boring as there were too many people and I don't know for what reason. Just so many of them even on a Wednesday night. Many got drunk, many got into quarrels and almost fights. Messy tonight. And even to go out, we have to squeeze lor.. Ridiculous.

It was nice to see Bert, Lester and others there today as well. Made more friends today though I like saw them before like don't know how many times. But it was nice.. Hope to see them again soon man.. And I miss my girls lor... Argh!

Okie.. I'm like left with a few hours to sleep before I meet my friends for swimming session in the afternoon. Hopefully I can get up on time. Anyone wants to wake me up? Lol! Just kidding. Goodnight to the night owls like me and Good Morning to those early birds unlike me. Hahaha!
Ciaos!

2009-04-01T14:25:00.004+08:00

Happy April Fool's Day peeps out there!

Nicholas Soon! So mean!!! Hahaha! I thought it was for real!! Roar!!
TS was so mean to send me that message also.. Asking me to try touching my teeth with my tongue. Damn it lol..
Eugene got tricked by this friend also on midnight hahaha!

Anyway, yesterday went out with Jon and Gene to the gym. Intensive workout lor.. Luckily my whole body isn't aching badly. Swimming tomorrow with them la.. I am serious about losing weight. Hahaha! I should have started earlier.

After that we went to have lunch at TM and saw Iris and Weiting but Weiting couldn't recognise me already. Bo xim one.. Lol. So after that went accompanied Gene to MS to get his tank top along with Jon. This is a good way to keep myself occupied.

Okie.. Anyway, the top that he wanted to get was too small for him. Furthermore, Jon and I thought it wasn't really nice. So we told him to get from NUM which is much nicer and it's dry fit la! So in the end he bought it and Jon bought one also. Me, just accompany them. Now I am thinking if I should get a big bag. For your information, NUM is having a 20% sale now for all items except for flip flops I think. So go grab yours now!! Muahaha!

Around 6 plus we left and I met up with the other Eugene at TM then saw Nas. Such a coincedence they know each other and Nas is my secondary school senior. In the same class as Min they all also. No wonder he looked so familiar. So chatted then after that both of us went to walk around, had my dinner and caught the movie Mall Cop. I thought the show was quite funny la.. But quite expected like what is going to happen next.

After the movie went to slack, had supper and homed. He kept calling me silly like the rest because of what I did to my hand. Haha. Hmm.. Should I get a tattoo? Jon thought of having one on his foot, Gene on his back or what and me either somewhere behind my back or hand. But I may not even get one either la. We'll see. Haha!

Alright gotta have my lunch. Might be meeting bestie later. Ciaos!

2009-03-31T01:50:00.003+08:00

Just came back from KTV session at Bedok with Ren and Jason. The sound system is not bad and the guy there whom I assume is the boss was quite nice as well.

Thanks my friends, family, relatives and my darling for always being there for me when I needed someone by my side most. I love you all. =) Thanks for not giving up on me no matter what. I really appreciate it.

I am going to enjoy my single life once again. What is the purpose of having a relationship when what I get in the end is always hurt? I shall enjoy myself to the fullest and live happily since men don't appreciate me. I shall appreciate myself. It would be so much better.

I am upset with everything but this is not going to bring me down. I am going to be stronger than ever. Goodbye to the word love for now. Though I still love you, it will be kept in my heart.

Gym tomorrow with Gene and Jon. Yay!! I shall lose weight!!!

2009-03-30T03:48:00.002+08:00

After sitting by the water alone, listening to music and drinking alone, I thought of many things.
And I won't say what is going through my mind.
I have my plans.
Maybe everything isn't as difficult as I think.
Don't be shocked if you see a changed me. It would be for the better I hope. Haha.
Thanks Ren for accompanying me at the later part.

Sorry for those who had been so worried about me.

I will be strong.. Don't worry about me. =)

Driving later on. Yay!! I shall sleep till it's time for my driving in the evening.

2009-03-29T15:15:00.004+08:00

Alright.. It's going to rain now and I wonder how are we going to meet up later.
Anyway, I know what is he going to say later on as well already. I can't say I am fully prepared for what he is going to tell me even though I know what he is going to say but I am at least half prepared.

Dad consoled me just now, and the more he did, the more I felt horrible deep inside me. I feel that I am such a lousy daughter. Always letting them worry. Even my own relationship, I can't handle it well myself. I am just a sucker.
They are thoughtful to ask me if I want to go out with them but I don't really enjoy sitting there watching them dance. I might end up walking away from my seat or what and start thinking again.

I met May yesterday and I was quite upset when I heard this. I was at Bedok's KFC having my dinner alone and so I acknowledged her when I saw her like "Hey May!" and she went like "You are alone? Aww okie.." The feeling kind of suck. I just felt like crying. There was just this emptiness in me. But well, I continued eating and left for the beach after that..

Furtheremore, I was really glad yesterday. Thanks Ren and Van for being there for me. Van was so crazy he came down to the beach to look for me without even telling me. But I already guessed it when he asked which tunnel I was walking. Thanks for the accompany though I really wanted to be alone yesterday night and thanks for the chocolate but I must tell you I don't really like nuts in chocolates. Haha. But I really appreciate what you did yesterday. Hope she will feel what you have done for her ya!

As for Ren of cause thanks for always being there and sorry to have made you worried as well.. Ren, jiayou in your relationship as well. I know you guys are a lot smarter than me in relationship and won't end up like me.

I don't know how things will be like later. You told me you want it to be the best evening that we both ever had so I hope I can grant you this wish. Hope I will not end up crying like a baby and stuffs like that.

I have to learn to be strong. Very strong. I have been facing reality every now and then. I just have to learn to face it once again.

I still want to tell you that you will still be in my heart and there will not be another because I won't find another. Simply because I love you. To me, I love you is not something that you just say verbally but something that is said from your heart and from the actions you do. Especially for someone you truly love.

Okie.. Being random.. I lost my comb and I still can't find it. Damn it. I guess I will just have to buy another one.

2009-03-28T14:58:00.003+08:00

Thanks for all the shits men had given me in the past.
Now I have to endure another one.
Maybe I'm just not fated to be in love.

I will wait for you because I love you.
I don't care whether you feel that we have chemistry or not because there will always be if we truly love each other.
But if you really feel like leaving, I can only wish you the best as I can't stop you from leaving if you want to.

Thanks for listening to me today dad. Teaching me more about life and relationships.
You may not be reading my blog but I still want to say it here.
Even though you have seen me gone through so much, my stupidity for jumping into different relationships, failing it time again and again, you had never given me up.

I just hope things would turn for the better between me and you(my bf).
I don't expect much from you because after all, it is your choice.
The door is always open but I hope you will close it and not just walk out of that door.
But no matter what your choice may be in future, I respect your decision for as you know how much I love you.

Just want to be alone by the beach later on.
Pray nothing is going to happen to me. Hah! Joke.
Bye.

2009-03-27T21:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I really don't understand the definition of LOVE. It is a simple four letter word but it is difficult to explain, do it and express it. What do you understand by this word LOVE?

In dictionary, there are so many definitions to describe LOVE. Therefore, no doubt it is a simply four letter word, there is a lot more to it.

As for me, I feel that love is when both are willing to give in, put in 100% of effort to make their partner happy, feel important and special. It is about understanding what your partner wants. Every couple has their ups and downs but what matters most is to find a solution to the problem. People who thinks that there is no solutions are dumb. It is whether you want to find the solution to it or not.

Guys often thinks that running away from the fact is something that will solve everything but it is actually just dumping all the shit to the girls. I won't say only guys do that. There are some girls out there who are like this as well.

Making your partner feel secure will allow them to have more trust in you. But of course, you must not do anything that betrays the trust of your partner. Trust is build between two couples which is very important. However, it is not as simple as it may seem as well.

Sometimes, guys thinks that girls are being over sensitive especially when they get close or talk to other girls. This is because you have not made your girlfriend feel 100% secure and you yourself will have to ensure that you know your limits as guys are very easily attracted by pretty ladies out there. This is one of the reasons why girls get jealous.

However, to those girls who says that your boyfriend cannot even talk to girls, get a life. What if your boyfriend does the same thing to you? Telling you that you cannot talk to any other guy friends of yours. This is totally ridiculous. Why not find someone of the same gender? Even having a partner of the same gender may like another from the same gender right? If we are going to keep worrying, it will never end.

To those who are already in a relationship and you really love your partner, please treasure them. Being able to be together is a chance and fate given by god. Learn to treasure it because you may not know if you may leave in regrets any day.

I envy couples who can last for years and keep going strong and can end up getting married. As for me, my love life has never been good. I am always hoping for a lasting relationship. Now that I am with Jer, I hope that we can really last till we grow old.

Dear, I want to tell you that no matter how hard life is going to be, I will always be by your side and I will go through every obstacle with you. Will you do the same too?

I love you.

2009-03-23T22:26:00.003+08:00

I just had my BBQ on Friday and it was a successful one. However, the outing was disappointing as almost everyone had something on and couldn't make it except for me, Eugene, TW and Jonathan. Therefore, instead of going for cycling, we went to have our lunch first. Then thought of either going to play pool or bowling.

However, both were too expensive so in the end we went to look for mahjong paper and after that, we decided not to get the mahjong paper and we headed to Swensens for ice cream! Haha! When Jon and Eugene ordered the firehouse, the staff wanted to light the candles. We kept laughing cuz he thought like maybe it was their birthday or something I guess.. So they were like "Er! Don't need don't need!". Then that sickening Jon forever one..

He commented on Eugene's ice cream with had a banana in it as well.

He asked "Eh Eugene! Why your banana look so funny one?"

Lol! Wa lao... Forever one lor.. After a while Daniel came over to meet us at White Sands as well.. Then we headed to Anson's house while Jon met up with his friends to go for Adidas sale which was nuts. In the morning before meeting the rest, Eugene and I had to walk through Expo and the queue was super long! All the way till the 7 eleven there nvm. There was still a turn backwards. It looks like a snake la.. But luckily when we went back that time it wasn't so packed already.

The BBQ that day was fun especially at night. When the rest were inside playing table tennis, a few of us were outside bbqing the rest of the food and chatting. Then we had ultra funny conversations la.. Half way, cockroaches spammed the place. Okie la.. I'm being exaggerating but there were really quite a number of them. It came from all three directions or maybe four? Now I know KY is afraid of flying cockroaches!! Lol!! It was damn funny when all of us ran when one of the cockroaches flew.

After that I took a bath and continued eating and chatting outside. Then baby came to pick me up. Thanks baby! =)

Met Min, her sis and WJ at Chinatown and WJ pissed me off even before I reached. But after that I wasn't angry already la of cause. Had a lot of fun suaning each other and we went to try the dessert that was located at Chinatown's temple street. It was not bad but I thought it was a little too expensive. I will upload the photos soon ya!

Then went to catch Hotel for Dogs and I thought it was quite nice. I rate it 3.5/5 stars. After movie we went Simpang Bedok for dinner and I waited for my black pepper beef hor fun for like 40 minutes or more till I was so pissed off. Then it came. After that went back home.

Yesterday helped baby's mum to move some stuffs in her new office and it was rather tiring. Both of us fell asleep in the boss' office till his mum was done with her stuff. Then his dad came over to pick us and we went for desert and then back home for durian. After that we took a nap and went over to his family's gathering. Most of them were very friendly and it wasn't as scary as I thought. So yep! Hope to know them better though!

Alright.. My eyes are getting dry due to my contacts. Shall blog again! I guess this is my longest post this month or after all these months? Hmm! Haha!

2009-03-19T16:20:00.002+08:00

Okie.. This is driving me nuts.. There are two person who asked me the same question already.

"Eh! Your hair is extended one ar?"

Wa lao!! The answer is NO! It is my real hair.. My hair is now bob and I still keep the back long. So please do not ask me the same question again ahh!!! Thank you!!.. Can't believe my hair looks like extended hair. Quite cool.. Hmm.. Haha!

Alright.. Driving today was nuts because I was like super not alert due to the lack of sleep. I think the instructor was like super scared.. Lol. Anyway tomorrow have to go get the stuffs for BBQ already. Hopefully can get everything on time man.. Will update the photos on XM and Darren's birthday once I get them from Kat. Till then!

2009-03-17T21:32:00.002+08:00

Just finished eating my mangoes. Hahaha! And I am like so full now.. It is ultra delicious, sweet and JUICY!

Anyway, celebrated Xiao and Darren's birthday yesterday. Although the plan didn't really work out as expected due to time constraint and everything, I hope the both of them enjoyed themselves yesterday and like what we had planned for them. Once again I wish them Happy 19th Birthday!! And of course thanks baby for helping me with the decorations at night =) Loves.

Went out with baby today and saw KY on the bus to Techno for dinner. After dinner baby sent me back and he went off to meet his friends.

AND!!!! I got pricked by those wood or whatever you call that. No matter how I try to get it out, it doesn't seem to come out and it bleed just now so now it is bandaged with plaster. Hopefully it will come out one day. Super worried la!.. It better not get infectious or what lor.. I don't want those disgusting yellowish stuff on my hand. In chinese you call that "long" and not long or short that long okie..

2009-03-16T00:15:00.005+08:00

To think TP is a month and a half away, I am getting nervous. Hmm.. Okie.. I am just being random..

Anyway today went to run errands again. Met up with Kat then after that went to meet dear and his parents for dinner and then went back home.

I want to go back BNSS to eat laksa la!! Why cannot go into the school? So retarded lor.. Maybe I shall go back Techview one day and find back my secondary school memories. Haha! OH! And being more random, that day I was chatting with Piyathip and the way she talked was ultra funny.

Look at our conversation below. We were actually talking about dogs and it started to sound a bit wrong.. (Click to view in a larger version)

OLTC Photos Mathix the Super Zai Empire!

2009-03-14T12:14:00.002+08:00

Oh my god.. I heard Mathix won the best empire this year?! Good job guys!! Sorry I wasn't able to join you guys on the third day and on night performance. Bet you guys had lots of fun man..

Hmm.. Anyway kind of busy planning for BBQ stuffs etc. Going crazy already and people are not getting back to me. It's kind of getting on my nerves.

Lots of things pissing me off now. Shall blog again.

2009-03-11T11:37:00.005+08:00

Hey people!! I will be going for OLTC (Orientation Leader Training Camp)! Will be back at night everyday but don't know if I will blog but well it's only for two days because friday I can't make it. Shall blog again soon!

2009-03-09T19:36:00.005+08:00

Hello people! Hmm.. Had a secondary class gathering yesterday and it was so nice to see everyone again. I really missed those days. Almost half the class came. Quite happy though =) Anyway I shall let the photos do the talking later on.

The day after tomorrow is OLTC camp already.. But I am still sick I don't know how though... Sian..

When can I get a job?!!! Argh!!

2009-03-07T16:25:00.004+08:00

It is raining again!! Argh!! Barely had enough sleep this morning so I shall take a nap before baby calls me later. Hopefully the rain will stop soon la.. And I missed so many class outings! I am so angry!! But I am happy as well as daddy bought a new mahjong table!! Yay!! I am just waiting for the mahjong set but he said he is going to buy a normal one only.. I feel like buying a chio set lehh.. It is just for fun la.. I am not a gambler or what.. Hate gambling though... Aw.. So excited..

Anyway I was quite disappointed going to Eatzi just now which used to be Jack's Place. Simei's Jack's Place used to be not bad but now, it seem to have lost the ambience already. I still think Tampines' Eatzi is better but daddy insisted on going Simei. Orbi good lor.. Then they complained so much.. The service there is horrible now as well.. Horrible lunch today.. Money wasn't well spent. Roar!! Should I go for camp? I really don't know.. Maybe because I dislike staying over in school or what bah..

Can't wait to see baby later! I shall go take a nap first. Ciaos!

2009-03-05T18:50:00.002+08:00

You know it is so irritating for the weather to be like rainy almost every single day? It simply makes me dread going out of my house due to the wet and muddy ground. Hopefully it doesn't rain tomorrow please... Anyway I am still ill but getting slightly better. Baby accompanied me yesterday over at my place. Made breakfast for baby and darling.

Then after that met darling up as she woke me up from my sleep dragging me to go shop for formal shoe with her which is like so last minute lor.. Always one leh.. Then ask me to help her make up -.- Okie.. Then in the end I managed to get a pair of formal shoe myself like finally!! Okie.. And went to get my puzzle frame also like finally!! Lol!! Because I am just so busy the other time to go get it you see.. Ya.. Gonna get prepared soon to meet my baby. Ciaos!

I need a job urgently please! Argh!!

2009-03-04T15:55:00.002+08:00

I am so having a bad running nose since yesterday night. It just came like this and I am so pissed off now because it is so darn irritating. I guess I am going to finish the whole box of tissue soon. Really feel damn sick now but I will be out with Min for job hunting as those dumb recruitment companies don't even reply after you sent them resumes and they still post that they are looking for candidates for that particular position or what.. Blah!!!

Anyway I am so looking forward to this Sunday's secondary class gathering man! Hope like everyone will have fun together.

I am so missing my boy now.. Roar!!

2009-03-04T03:43:00.005+08:00

Okie Mr Piggy asked me to blog so that he can go and sleep earlier lol so I shall blog ya! Anyway had been out with my beloved boy these few days. RSVP on Saturday was cool meeting the DJs from 98.7fm. Thanks baby for asking me there. Then met the guys at St James and Dom made a mess at St James.. So horrible.. I think he accidentally puked on a guy also.. Lots of things happened. Met Suki there as well with her bf so we danced a while then I went off with baby. Stayed over his place and went for bowling session with his parents and him. So paiseh lor.. My skills totally suck can? It is time for me to buck up!!

Went back on Monday and met up with Min after my driving session. Supposed to go 85 for dinner then closed for washing or what again. Always one lor.. Sian.. So we went over to Bedok Interchange for dinner and I think due to being drenched and eating mutton soup I am like half sick now.. Met up with James and baby supposingly for movie but james was late lor!! So we didn't manage to catch a movie.. And he claimed that he helped a granny or what cross the road. I think it was an excuse lor.. Only Min will know the truth lol. In the end we went to Mac and crapped a lot. After that baby came over my place and James sent Min back.

Today slept at home and doing my blogskin. After that went to meet baby and his friends for dinner. Nice bunch of people though =) After that went to slack around before going back.

It is great to have you by my side my dear =) I love you

2009-02-26T21:09:00.003+08:00

Everything is so screwed up now. Don't want to think about anything already. Missed my driving lesson yesterday and wasted $60 and I felt so guilty. I really don't know what else to do now.

2009-02-21T18:42:00.003+08:00

AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!! I AM GOING CRAZY!!!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW WHEN WE COMPILE ALL OUR WORK AND DO THE POWERPOINT AND EVERYTHING IS COMPLETED!!! YAY!!!!!!!! BUT...........

I HAVE TO CHIONG LIKE SIAO NOW...

Seriously, all of us are so unsure what teacher expects us to do.. We just do what we can...

And I think I am starting to talk a lot about celebraties ever since I started listening to the radio profusely now a days. RIHANNA IS ONLY 21 YEARS OLD!!! OMG!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? I couldn't lor.. I thought she was older.. Just like people thought I'm already in my twenties. Damn it. Anyway the current news is about her and Chris Brown. Who is saying the truth? We will find out soon I guess.. And if you all don't know who is Rihanna and Chris Brown you all can go and bang the wall already. Haha! Just kidding.

Job Hunting and enjoyment is going to start soon. I can't wait!!!

Any IND Year 2 students going crazy? Please raise your hand! LOL!! See la I'm going crazy already..

Anyway bro was so nice to listen to me and gave me comments which I thought was rather a matured saying. After so many years of not meeting up and rare contacts, I didn't know he is going through so much in his relationship as well but he is strong and faithful.. I wish every guy is like him lor.. Hais... Hope that girl will cherish him la!! Other I am so gonna box her face.. Grr..

It has been 6 days. Hais.. Nono! NO EMO CHERYL!! CONTINUE WITH YOUR WORK!! >=(

Jiayou to those who are still chionging MMP2 project like me and those having examinations!

2009-02-19T00:12:00.002+08:00

There are so many things I want to do... I shall list it down lor..

1) Quickly complete my projects and have my holidays
2) Get a job
3) Chiong my Driving
4) Watch a movie
5) Sing KTV
6) Play pool
7) Slack with friends
8) Dance
9) Change my blogskin

So many things!!! AHH!!! And I am very disappointed in my CDS result.. Shall not talk about it already.

I want you to be by my side.

2009-02-16T18:29:00.002+08:00

I am currently feeling so down again. Am I having a mood swing?
I hope I am not... This feeling is horrible.. It cannot be described..
Sometimes I wonder why do I have to be a girl? Being a man is so much better at times.
Hais.. Okie guess I am back to emo mood again.
Shall blog another day.

2009-02-15T18:17:00.003+08:00

Wa.. I am so happy!! I just got myself a new red hard disk and a red mouse!! But of cuz there are some other stuffs but know why I am so excited?! Because it's red!!! Wakakakax!

Anyway how did you people spend your valentine's day? Mine was with friends as my boy had to work. So only managed to spend a few hours with him in the morning. Anyway, it doesn't mean Valentine's day have to be spent with boyfriends or girlfriends. You can always celebrate with your loved ones like your family and friends around you. But I understand how it feels when you see couples like lovey dovey outside on Valentine's Day. I totally understand! Argh!

Anyway I am going to continue admiring my new red stuffs! Ciaos! Haha! Okie I am so sick I know.. -.-

I miss my boy so much.

2009-02-11T20:14:00.002+08:00

I am so tired..... Didn't really sleep yesterday. Maybe only slept for an hour? Then cabbed down to meet baby. Kept coughing throughout the night lor.. Cannot stand it.. Well.. Have got lots of things to do.. Can't wait for holidays like seriously...

Less than a day and I am missing my boy already.

2009-02-07T17:15:00.003+08:00

Okie I am so going crazy already. I have so many projects and tests on hand and my own problems I am really going crazy already.

You know, I have been listening to the radio and people talking about Valentine's Day, how couples are going to celebrate and stuffs like that. Then I keep thinking, will I have a sweet Valentine's Day? Or is it going to be another ordinary day for me just like any other years.

Well... okie anyway have you guys heard about the hot topic about Miley Cirus these few days? Miley Cirus is now like being hated by the chinese in certain countries and it sounded quite serious because she mocked at her Asian guy friend in one of the photos by pulling the side of her eye making it small. You guys know that most Asians' eyes are quite small right? So ya.. She did that and to Chinese, it is actually a criticism like that. So now, she got herself into big trouble.

Alright, I shall stop here for now, shall update again!

2009-02-03T10:37:00.002+08:00

Super no life now.. I have like got test tomorrow which consists of 11 topics plus 8 tutorials.. How nice can? Anyway things haven't been really good for me but since yesterday I felt a little better and at least i sort of know what I am going to do.

Hope I will be on cloud nine soon. Okie. Back to studying. Focus!!! Omg..

Ciaos!

2009-01-31T19:08:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone out there!

Life had been rather screwed up for me.. Nothing seems important to me anymore. Totally got no mood to do anything and my projects and everything are quite screwed as well.. Hais.. Well, I don't know how long is this going to be.. Thanks for those who are there for me. Sorry if I lose my temper easily or behave weirdly now a days. Give me some time..

Why do you have to become like this? Is this is how you describe love to me?
Why do you guys have to be such an ass? Argh!
Fuck everything for now. Bye.

2009-01-22T16:48:00.002+08:00

Hello people! Missed me? Haha.. My comment box is like so quiet lor.. Come on people leave your comments!! Hahaha! Well.. I have been rather unwell these few days. Sprained my ankle and had a cut after St James that day on the way back to baby's place.

Then had fever after I went to the Chinese Physician also.. Loads of work for me to do.. Test and submissions next week is driving me crazy please! Really no more Chinese New Year already lor.. I thought so good like yay can celebrate!! Now my plan is like ruined la!! Argh!

Don't want to fall sick anymore la.. This is driving me crazy...

Listening to music in class now and blogging as it is break time haha.

Should I go clubbing this Saturday again? =/

2009-01-16T01:53:00.004+08:00

Hello people.. I am like so upset.. Went back to school yesterday for lecture and realized there is a test on the day after CHINESE NEW YEAR LA!!! I am like so devastated.. Roar!! I guess I can't enjoy my Chinese New Year already..

It's so late already and I am still not sleeping yet!! I have lesson at 9 tmr!! Omg... Crap... So tired.. Guess I won't be cutting bob le bah since majority asked me not to cut -.-

Nic said this "Eh you cut botak, I want you to be my gf". That is like will not happen one lor.. Unless like something hit me so bad that I can't take it la.. Lol.. I doubt he wants a botak girl also lor lol. Which guy doesn't like pretty girls with long silky hair right? Too bad I already don't have those two criteria as well already.

And to share with you all something. For those who are a sadist or dislike me one I guess you will laugh. Okie.. I was like smsing while walking towards Techo that day with CH. Then half way I lifted up my head wanting to tell CH something and then "BONG!!!". The passerbys stared at me. I bet they must be laughing at me deep inside can? Actually I walked in between a sign board that was around my height and I didn't even realize lor.. Then when I lifted up my head I hit it like fucking hard and it's metal.. So like now I have got a big bao on my head.

Okie that's all for today I shall go and sleep now.. Goodnight night owls! Lol!

2009-01-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

Omg.. I don't know why but I feel as if my life is quite screwed up now.. No longer feel like I am like myself anymore sometimes. Hopefully I am just thinking too much.

Anyway haven't been blogging as I was busy with Open House and projects and other stuffs.. And after shopping for two days, I didn't get any tops or what.. I don't know what type of top I should get. Thought of getting Cheong Sam but mummy scolded me because she said I will only wear it once a year. Come to think about it she's right but I am still going to get it! LOL!!! That is only if I have the time la.. Darling, let's go buy and wear together!! Wahahaha!!

I will still be going on chinese new year clothes hunting. I don't care.. Lol.. I am such a spendthrift girl..

So tired now a days.. Cannot stand it.. Roar!!

2009-01-06T20:01:00.004+08:00

I am like ultra sad.. I had a high fever yesterday and so C accompanied me to the doctor despite he was working. It was like 11 plus at night when I went to the clinic. Reached home around 12 plus.

So doctor gave me an MC to rest at home today. However, my MC majiam not MC like that.. I still had to do my school work. Argh.. Thank goodness I am feeling better already. Hopefully my fever has already subsided.

Alright.. Gtg! Ciaos!

TS! Don't say I never update hor!

2009-01-05T18:26:00.003+08:00

Okie the project for my CDS is like over after two to three weeks of chionging. I am almost going nuts please.. One project after another is killing me and all of them are equally important and are of heavy weightage lor..

Had some eye irritation because of my lenses today I guess and it was Team Temasek's Day if I am not wrong so I wore the red Team Temasek shirt today haha!

Hmm.. Nothing much today actually.

Went to have dinner with jason, ren and darling at techno. Jason and Darren is zai one lor.. Yesterday they majiam don't know how many days never eat like that.. They went for Round 2 lor.. I was like dying already. Super full then darling told me she was not full either. I was like WTH!! o.o Thus, we went to have ice cream as I was like craving for it despite the chocolate ice cream dropped on my shirt last week. I don't care!! Hahaha! I think yesterday I kena a bit also. Gosh.. I eat ice cream like a kid la.. So careless -.-

Anyway did I mention that my group mates and I went to the MINT Museum? No right? It's actually a toy museum and I remembered Dom asking me this.. "What museum is that? Make coins one ar?" Wa lao! I nearly banged my head against the wall can! Make coins.. Erm.. Ya.. Haha! Anyway, if you all are interested you can go down and take a look. It's at Seah Street which is like between Bugis and City Hall. Students got half price!! The food there is not bad either.. Can go try!!

2009-01-02T23:36:00.004+08:00

Hello people! Happy New Year to all of you out there!

Hope all of you have a great year ahead of you ya!! =)

Anyway, this semester is craziness.. Tons of work to do but yet, so little time. I guess my blog viewers and getting lesser and lesser and that is bad... Haha! But well, it's a person's choice whether to read to blog or not also.

Today's driving was nuts. I think I really must have my car stalled don't know how many times in one lesson. I am like so lousy lor.. So upset can...

2008-12-30T19:01:00.002+08:00

I feel so fucked up right now.. I don't know if I did the right thing..
Everything seems to be haywired now, not going the way I want it to be I guess..

Just now even when I had ice cream, the ice cream freaking dropped on my white top and out of the 3 flavours, the CHOCOLATE one fell off my mouth while talking on the phone.
When I walk, I bump into things. Crap.

I really don't know what is wrong man.

2008-12-21T14:42:00.002+08:00

I really don't know what I am doing now and who I am starting to become already. Things in my life are like going haywire. I no longer know how to handle it. Even trying to sit alone the whole night trying to analyse the problem, I can't seem to think. This is really irritating.

Oh I was drunk again the day before due to drinking too much and C went to make Long Island Tea for me which really like made me K.O. That night I drank like super loads la.. Went home and hugged the freaking toilet bowl as if it's my boyfriend or something. Have been drinking like almost everyday. Seriously, I no longer know what to blog. So just an advice if you are a sadist and wants to see my emo posts, view my blog. If you are not, you may be bored seeing me blog the same thing again and again. Hah!

Gtg.. Waiting for that pig to call me -.-

2008-12-18T00:22:00.003+08:00

I only have two words to say which is

"Freaking upset"

I really feel very helpless now.. I don't know how to handle and what to do. Emo-ed for two days. Thanks C for always being there for me =)

Feeling very tired now a days even though I had long hours of sleep lor.. I think I am relying on coffee already and I must kick that habit away.

Not really in a mood to blog already. Will blog again tomorrow or something. Sorry for being emo here. Haha.

Thanks for those who had shown care and concern to me as well.. Don't worry alright? I will be fine.. Just need some time alone I guess..

2008-12-14T22:27:00.002+08:00

Met up with bro outside his work place yesterday and chatted for a while then went to meet my cousin. Went to St James yesterday and saw YY, JH they all. Such a coincedence. Yesterday was like the first time I didn't really enjoyed myself at the club. Don't know why leh.. And my slight heels were killing my feet.

After St James went over to cousin's place to stay and I am like still at her place now haha. I'm bored!! Someone entertain me please..

I miss my baby so much..

2008-12-13T14:03:00.003+08:00

Haha so omg lor.. Now a days many shocking things happened until I don't know what to do also.
I feel so guilty..

Anyway yesterday went for my second practical lesson and I went on the road la.. So scary can!!.. My instructor was really nice =) I got back the same instructor but I think the next time round won't be the same instructor le bah.. Driving is so fun man... Woot!!

I hope Ces and Daniel would be going tonight arbo darling cannot go and thus I can't go clubbing again. Otherwise I would have to think of other things to do.. Hm...

I keep waking up at 7 plus 8 plus thinking that there is school like that. Haiyo.. So tired..

Bye!!

2008-12-12T13:34:00.008+08:00

Okie people! I am here to flood you guys with photos! Lol!
Wa.. This is the first time I can sleep till 12 plus leh!! Woo!!

Anyway the other day I heard this joke on radio.. I found it super lame.. Don't know if you guys can catch it.. It goes like this...

Ah Beng and Ah Lian just got married.. And they are going on a honey moon. Then Ah Beng stopped his car at Balestier and put his hand on Ah Lian's leg. Ah Lian blushed and said "Darling.. We are already married. You can go further than that......."

Guess what Ah Beng did?

.He drove off to Woodlands =x

Lame right? Say it is.. Lol! Okie.. Anyway I heard that over the radio la.. So don't say I am very lame to say this kies! Yesterday wanted to go on a shopping spree but ended up buying one top only and a present for him. Why?! Because it is raining la.. And I cannot get over to bugis street! Roar!!!! I have got so many things to get please!... Driving later.. Hope today I can get more chops liao.. Arbo I go bang the wall seriously.. Hmpff!

That's for now! Toodles!!

2008-12-11T07:24:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to dumb dumb and my precious min min! =)

Hey yo people! I am so excited today I don't know why.. I so miss blogging. Had been so busy till i could hardly blog. To those who got ignored by me in MSN or what I apologise because I really cannot afford to waste time chatting lol. But from today on! I will be able to tok for as long as you want! Lol! I will update again after i come back from my evaluation. Photos will be uploaded!!

Stay tune yo!

Loves!

2008-12-03T12:13:00.003+08:00

PLEASE SAVE ME FROM MY PROJECTS!!!!

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

COFFEE IS NOW MY BEST FRIEND, ARE YOU COFFEE? IF YOU ARE NOT PLEASE GO AWAY!

Lol! I am getting mad.. Back to my project!! I am just here to rant!!

2008-12-01T21:59:00.004+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday to JY!! =)

Hello people! I know I haven't been blogging for some time because I have been having tests and projects.. As for the tests, disappointing.. I know cannot make it already.. Hais.. Seriously I hate Block Teaching..

I am tired.. Really tired.. I need a break really soon.. Though this is the last week of school, it is killing me already..

Going to start my first practical lesson next week.. Pet Lee is going at the same time as me for both days as well!! Yay!! Can see her already! Hope everything will be fine man..

Guess I am going to sleep already.. I shall update again.. Bye people!

2008-11-22T17:38:00.002+08:00

I am totally pissed off with Singtel and M1's service today. Went to Singtel and queued for like more than 15 mins. And then I was told that I can only upgrade my phone with an additional top up of $100. I was so pissed off because the previous time I went over, the lady told me that I can already upgrade my line but she didn't mention about the additional $100 so I made a wasted trip down today and waited for so long.

As for the M1 at Tampines, the service was totally CMI. They don't seem to have the priority for their customers and they don't have the thing to keep their customers. No wonder I see lesser and lesser people going into M1 now a days even on a weekend. I guess they seriously have to do something about it. They used to be one of the service that was in high demand but now it seems like Starhub and Singtel are doing a better job.

Didn't manage to get what I want today also.. Bad day.. Shall not continue further. Going out later. Bye!

2008-11-21T00:04:00.002+08:00

Okie! The three days of TP Rawks is over! I must admit that it was really fun and enjoyable man! I bet all the Rawkers had fun too right?! Haha!

Went for lesson as usual today. I was ultra tired from the camp and I had to face myself looking at codes early in the morning.. Haha! And after lesson, went home to take a nap and study my BTT and after that went for my BTT and I passed! Haha! Darren and Jason passed their BTT also! We were like one of the first few to finish doing it la.. So I was quite happy.. Finally a load off my mind.. However, there is still advance theory which means more studying -.- GG and nice lor..

Went Mac to have dinner and then slacked opposite my house. Then I saw Si Kai as usual when I go to the park haha. Played with his husky and his friend's golden retriever today. They are so adorable I must say.. Super friendly dogs.. Went back home after that..

Very tired again.. Haha! Goodnight people!

2008-11-17T21:53:00.003+08:00

Wooo!! People! Today was the first day of TP RAWKS!!
It was pretty fun especially the beginning and the last part of the day. Super Zai!
The O level leavers did great man!!! WOOO!!! 3 CHEERS FOR THEM!
Today I am super high I don't know why.. I think maybe because of Ruth la.. Now I am a bit siao like that.. Haha!

I am looking forward to the next day of TP RAWKS! HEY PEOPLE! IF YOU JUST FINISHED YOUR O LEVELS, YOU CAN COME JOIN US TOMORROW AND WEDNESDAY EVEN IF YOU MISSED OUT THE FIRST DAY!! COME COME! LET'S ALL HAVE FUN TOGETHER!!

Oh.. And today I was so happy to see IIT School people... Omg la.. I was like ultra happy I don't know why... I LOVE IITSC AND THE PEOPLE THERE!!! WOOO!!
Darren's hair got lice becareful lol! =x Jk!

And I got myself a new Everlast's shoe as my converse shoe tore! How nice lor.. I think the other time I put too much chorine or what I guess.. Went to look for berms and cannot get even one lor.. All like so damn long I can't stand it.. So in the end I didn't buy.. Pek chek day.. Can't get a nice black t-shirt also.. Then wanted to buy bubble tea to cool down but they ran out of pearls already. So I didn't drink. Argh!!

Anyway, that's all for today! Bye!

2008-11-16T22:28:00.002+08:00

Yawns... Have been rather tired these few days due to the lack of sleep.
Nothing much these few days also.. Just rushing of projects and tonning again? Hm..
Learnt a new game from Marcus and Mario haha. That day was really quite fun la..

Went for my BTT e-trial also these three days. Hopefully my real BTT will pass lor.. Anyway I accidentally cut my finger while trying to open the bottle's cap.

Going to prepare the cake soon! Bye!

2008-11-13T18:55:00.002+08:00

Some guys just show me their true colours and I am disgusted by it.
You know.. This type of guys can kindly f off? Ya.. Thank you very much..

Anyway, today was a codey day... I had been looking at codes since yesterday till today evening. Then after that went for mascot interview.. Hopefully everything is fine la.. I doubt I will have the chance to be chosen but well, just hope for the best lor.. To have the chance to get in..

I am very tired but I still have to struggle through because tomorrow is the submission day lor.. Suddenly tell us that we had to do so many things.. E-trial tomorrow and I haven't study. Good luck to me... Lol! I wonder how will I fair for the real BTT lor.. I want to pass in one shot one hor!! Hahaha!

Tired tired!! I shall continue with my project. Yawns...

2008-11-11T23:00:00.003+08:00

Had CMSK interview today. Quite worried about it because I didn't really prepare for it. Hope everything will be alright la..

Missing you... It has been more than a week..

2008-11-10T23:57:00.002+08:00

I am so upset today that i cried and my knuckles were hurt because I was so pissed off and upset that my dad didn't tell me that he was going to reformat my desktop and everything in my desktop was gone.. They all are all unsaved documents la except for some..

Then yesterday morning before we went back after St James, I was complaining that I lost my clip then Daniel said, if you lose something be happy because it means that something good might happen. Then I replied.. But nothing good will happen one la.. He then replied "THEN YOU SHOULD BE GLAD THAT NOTHING BAD HAPPEN". It is quite true but a bit funny also lorh.. Sounds so contradicting like that.. However, I think he was wrong lor.. Something bad did happened ma.. My desktop documents all gone! I was super pissed off lor.. Anyway, I am feeling a lot better now.. Just now was total eruption I guess.. Oops..

I am so tired!!! Interview tomorrow!! Jiayou everyone!

You will always gonna be my love.

2008-11-09T16:12:00.008+08:00

Woot! Dancing is my love man...
Danced like crazy at St james yesterday. It was quite fun but very tiring lorh.. And I danced soberly because it was R&B so it was easier to get the groove of dancing though..

Next week is going to be nuts for me man.. Presentation tomorrow, interview on Tuesday, E-trial soon also.. Omg.. This is driving me nuts and please say that Cheryl is a pro because her BTT is coming and she has not really studied for it lor!

I am so hungry.. Waiting for my piggy cousin to finish bathing then we go and eat..

P.S: I miss you and I feel so insecure without you...